On Our Own Again
 February 15, 2006....It just never seems to end.....
Well, today was errand/grocery day. We spent a good 4 1/2 hours out. K was really good and got to get a treat so she was happy. It is really sunny out so I took the top of the sandbox to let it dry out and let her out to play. She had a good time but with me in the house putting groceries away she kept leaving the yard. So I had to bring her inside, it was snack time anyway.
L got to call home yesterday afternoon which was really nice. They must have reserved the bulk of the phone time for family men to call home. We got our usual half hour and it was nice to just chat and not really have an agenda. Still counting down the garbage days until he is home.
I am always learning life lessons, whether it's one I've been taught before or not. And this is kind of a sad one. It's amazing how friends you truly trust everything with and do tons for will abuse and gossip behind your back. And not just to people in close relation to you, but I mean go out of their way and call people in other provinces to yak about you. UNREAL. This "phenomenon" never ceases to amaze me. And then, and here is the real kicker, they have NO IDEA why you are mad. UGH........whatever. I am too old and too busy to spend too much time giving it thought. I have to keep moving on and I guess my one consolation is, this world is small, and what goes around come around. I know, I know...very cliche but it seems to work.
Tuesday's Tales
Do you celebrate Valentine’s Day? I do.
What is your fav memory of the day? Having a big couples romance party at my condo about 4 years ago.
If you celebrate.. what are your plans? This year, as the last few, dh is away. Dd and I had snacks and ordered take out.
If you do not celebrate… what do you do in lieu of? This is no applicable to me.
Mood: T.V: Jacob Two Two Reading: nothing right now Project: Winnie the Pooh cross stitch for a friend's ds
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 February 13, 2006....I just feel so.....
Ah, so I guess today turned out to be one of those feel bad for yourself days. I can only imagine tomorrow will be much the same. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one to complain or b*tch but I just wish dh was home. Oh only like 30 more days or something like that. I am not counting, I gave up on that a long time ago. Things are never that concrete in the military world, so I don't get myself all excited just in case I get let down. I just have to live with, "he'll be home when he's home". I have lots of people around, I just get lonely. :(
Dd and I are still keeping busy. We have some errands to run this week so hopefully this week will fly by. We have just been spending the last few days laying low. I need some "me" time so maybe I'll pop some popcorn and watch tv in my pjs early tonight, after dd is in bed. Maybe then I can get my thoughts together and feel less blah.
To all of you who have dh/df/dw/dwhatever at home for tomorrow, you are so very lucky. To those of you who don't, you're not alone. Happy V Day. 
Mood: T.V: Babar Reading: nothing right now
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 February 12, 2006....A Quiet Day.....
OMG with everything I have going on I am getting so burnt out. I really just need a few days to myself to recharge. I can't wait until dh is home for a few weeks, but on the other hand I don't just want to drop dd in his lap when he walks through the door. I knew in the beginning being a military wife would be hard and dh would be away quite a bit, I guess I just never realized it would be this often.
Though I am not a true single mom I really feel like it some days. I make all the day to day decisions, and even some of the major ones. Dh can only call about once a week so I have to run the house and make the choices that need to be made on my own. I ask for his input when I can but lately that seems to be less and less. I have tons of friends but they are at other bases, and some are even going through what I am right now. Thank goodness I have them to talk to on the phone. I would be totally NUTS if I didn't. Ah, just keep counting the weeks, it can't be that much longer. And at least I don't really have to worry about dh's tour being extended....it's not likely to happen.
Yesterday dd and I did some Mom/Daughter stuff. After swimming lessons, I took her out and she picked out her Valentine's toy from Nana and Papa. She got another Polly Pocket...surprise, surprise. Then I went to get tickets for today's showing of Curious George but she really wanted to stay and see it yesterday, so we did. It is a really cute movie and we had lots of fun. Right now, dd is upstairs playing with her new toys. She is a good kid.
By the Way Sunday
By the way...
Will you be watching the coverage of the winter Olympics? Every once in a while.
If so, what is your favorite event or events to watch? Figure Skating and Downhill skiing.
Who are you rooting for? A country, a particular athlete? Canada, of course.
Have you ever attended an olympic event in person? No.
Do you have a favorite winter Olympian from years past? Kurt Browing and Elvis Stokjo.
If you could add a sport to the winter olympics, what would it be? I can't think of anything.
Mood: T.V: Fairly Odd Parents Reading: nothing right now
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 January 19, 2006....Another celebration without
dh....
So, it is our anniversary and dh is away. Boo hoo. Dd and I will be eating dinner out and laying around watching tv. I can only imagine what dh will be doing, if he remembers what today is. LOL.
I am excited as I finally added an Odeo podcast link on my site. Once I get my mic back I will be able to chat with you and you can hear my clips by clicking the button(it's green and located in the last "box" of this page). WOO HOO.
Dd has finally "lost" her soother and we are on DAY 3 of our "adventure". She is doing okay except she is having a really hard time going to sleep without it and staying asleep through the night. Now, she is like a baby bear cub and I am tooo tired to fight with her.
A friend's dh was injured in Afghanistan Sunday and we are sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and best wishes to him, her, her family, the guys that were with him and those that are all around them. Seems so surreal for me, I can't even begin to imagine how she must feel.
Mood: T.V: Atomic Betty Reading:a Walmart flyer
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 January 14, 2006....A Room Full of People....
Goodness, I just started this blog and already I am falling behind. I miss dh more than ever sometimes, though my days go on uninterupted. Meals still have to be cooked, cleaning must still be done, dd must still get a big portion of my day and....sometimes so little is really left for me. There are days I could be in a room full of people and still be all alone.
Though I hope these days come to an end I still cherish something in them. Maybe the quiet or the solitude, I'm not really sure. I wonder if the path I am following is the one I am meant to lead?! Ah, getting way to deep for this blog. Dh is doing well and we are fine, I have friends and things to do here. It really does some ever busier since he left, but I know there is a light at the end of this windy tunnel, as faint is it may be at times.
I got the Sims 2 and have been addicted to it ever since. At least some little piece of time and enjoyment I have for just me. It helps and I know I need it.
Mood: T.V: The Wedding Date Reading: an Archie book
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