This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
~~~HIGH VOLTAGE~~~
You know what I mean
Try to put a label on a life
Put a label on a lifestyle (Sometimes)
You know, put a label on how you wake up every morning and go to bed at night (Alright)
I've been diggin' in the crates / ever since I was living in space
Before the rat race / before monkeys had human traits
I mastered numerology and big bang theology
Performed lobotomies with telekinetic psychology
Invented the mic so I could start blessing it
Chin-checking kids to make my point like an impressionist
Many men have tried to shake us
But I twist mic cords into double helixes and show them what I'm made of
I buckle knees like leg braces
Cast a spell of instrumentalness on all of you emcees who hate us
So you can try on / leave you without a shoulder to cry on / from now to infinity / let icons be bygons
A firebomb / ghostly notes haunt this
I tried threats, but moved on to a promise
I stomp shit / with or without an accomplice and
Run the gauntlet with whoever that wants this
High voltage
The unforgettable sound
High voltage
Bringin' you up and taking you down
High voltage
Comin' at you from every side
High voltage
Making the rhythm and rhyme collide
(Akira) I put a kink in the backbones of clones with microphones
And never satisfy my rhyme jonez
Spray in bright day over what you might say
My blood type's krylon / Technicolor type A
On highways, write with road rage
Pages of wind in cages of tin that bounce all around
Surround sound / devouring the scene
Subliminal gangrene paintings / over all the same thing
Sing-song karaoke copy bullshit
Break bones verbally with sticks-and-stone tactics
Fourth dimension combat convention
Write rhymes at ease while the track stands at attention
Meant to put you away / with a pencil pistol official
Sixteen-line / the rhyme missile
While you risk your all / I pick out all your flaws
Spittin' raw blah blah blah you can say you saw
High voltage
The unforgettable sound
High voltage
Bringin' you up and taking you down
High voltage
Comin' at you from every side
High voltage
Making the rhythm and rhyme collide
High voltage
The unforgettable sound
High voltage
Bringin' you up and taking you down
High voltage
Comin' at you from every side
High voltage
Making the rhythm and rhyme collide
I like to rock and rap, you know what I mean?
People are acting like, you know, "wow that’s a new invention"
That shit thing, you know
We're constantly evolving
It is constantly changing (Sometimes)
There's a world of change
Everybody's always trying to put labels on it, there ain't no label for this shit
They always gotta try to put a label on it
Try to create something so they can water it down
Sometimes I feel like a prophet / misunderstood
Under the gun like a new disease
Sometimes I feel like a prophet / misunderstood
Under the gun like a new disease
High voltage
The unforgettable sound
High voltage
Bringin' you up and taking you down
High voltage
Comin' at you from every side
High voltage
Making the rhythm and rhyme collide
(x3)
You know what I mean? You can't put a label on a lifestyle.
~~~ESAUL ("A Place For My Head" Demo)~~~
Riding with a head full of bodies are red
And when this x is still stuck in my head
But misled doing the things I do would make you never wanna come back
But an all front attack, so you could never run from that
Being trapped in this beau, some that I never wanted to do
But through it all you've got to see that what I want to be
Is over the pen again letting it out of me
In the center of the day in the dream, seeing all my thoughts
Getting lost in between, realizing one that the way to the sea
And the killing and again are in the head with the screams
I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I live for them
I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
We're gonna be crushed when it all falls apart
Going in the hollow, hoping that you won't know
The strain it puts to me, seeing what you've done
And consequently I've run away, just hitting again
Within the boundaries of an anguish
Want me to say this, but you're dragging me down
Lost in the chaos being tossed around
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic
Hope that some day you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time
Adding to the panic in my confine going blind (??)
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic
Hope that some day you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time
Adding to the panic in my confine going blind (??)
I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I live for them
I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
You
Try to take the best of me
Go away
You
Try to take the best of me
Go away
You
Try to take the best of me
Go away
You
Try to take the best of me
GO AWAY
You
Try to take the best of me, go away
You
Try to take the best of me, go away
You
Try to take the best of me, go away
You
Try to take the best of me, go away
I wanna live in another place
Where no one can say that I live for them
I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Shut up (last word can't understand)
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic
Hope that some day you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time
Adding to the panic in my confine going blind (??)
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic
Hope that some day you'll regret this
Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time
Adding to the head of mine, I'm going blind (??)
~~~SUPER XERO ("By Myself" Demo)~~~
What do I do to ignore what's behind me?
Do I follow my fate to escape blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I let it go and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust none and live in loneliness?
Because sunlight burns the skin of sleeping men
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself)
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I
Turn my back I'm defenseless
And to give in to fate seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
(By myself)
How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid I'm now out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside
~~~CAROUSEL~~~
She can't hide no matter how hard she tries
Her secret disguise behind her lies
And at night she cries away her pride
With eyes shut tight, staring at her inside
All her friends know why she can't sleep at night
All her family asking if she’s all right
All she wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all she's gotta do is stop kidding herself
She can only fool herself for so long
She can only fool herself for so long
She can only fool herself for so long
She can only fool herself for so long
I'm too weak to face me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
When it comes to how to live his life
He can't be told
Says he's got it all under control
Thinks he knows it's not a problem he’s stuck with
But in reality, it'd be a problem to just quit
An addict and he can't hold the reigns
The pain is worse cause his friends have it the same
Tries to slow down the problem he's got
But can't get off the carousel
Until he makes it stop
He can only fool himself for so long
He can only fool himself for so long
He can only fool himself for so long
He can only fool himself for so long
I'm too weak to face me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
Try to fly with the wings I gave you
Try to do what you believe and I'll save you
Try to fly with the wings I gave you
Try to do what you believe and I'll save you
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
~~~STEP UP~~~
Watch as the room rocks
Mentally moon walk
Mixed media slang
Banging in your boom box
Verbal violence, lyrical stylists
In a time when rock-hip hop rhymes are childish
You can't tell me with rhymes that are empty
Rapping to a beat doesn't make you an MC
With your lack of skill and facility you're killing me
And a DJ in the group just for credibility
I heard it somewhere you were getting help with your rhymes
You're not an MC if someone else writes your lines
Rapping over rock doesn't make you a pioneer
Cause rock and hip hop collaborated for years
But now they're getting readily mixed and matched up
Well after a fast buck and all the tracks suck
So how does it stack up, none of it's real
You wanna be an MC, you gotta study the skill
Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Bring it to you everytime like this?
Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Step step up step step up
So you pick up a pen and write yourself a new identity
But mentally you don't have the hip hop energy
With a tendency to make up stories
Sounding like the only hip hop you've heard is top 40
And your record companies completely miss it
And all the kids are dissing it for not being legitimate
So in a battle you can't hack it, react with whack shit
And get smacked with verbal back flips
Get your ass kicked a fabulous battle catalyst
It's taken decades for MC's to establish this
You're new to hip hop, and welcome if you're serious
But not on the mic, leave that to the experience
Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Bring it to you everytime like this?
Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Step step up step step up
Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Bring it to you everytime like this?
Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Step step up step step up
~~~AND ONE~~~
Where should I start
Disjointed heart
I've got no commitment
To my own flesh and blood
Left all alone
Far from my home
No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I
Keep it locked up inside
Cannot express
To the point I've regressed
If anger's a gift, then I guess I've been blessed, I
Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies
Cannot express
To the point I've regressed
If anger's a gift, then I guess I've been blessed, I
Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies
It's too late to love me now
You helped me to show me
It's too late to love me now
You don't take a word in
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me)
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me)
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Keep my distance
Keep my distance
Keep my distance
Keep my distance
Spit drips in the jar, the witless witness
Cryptic code, realism shifts your mystic
Dark all I do embark the shadows,
Involved with my thought catalogue, analogue, rap catalogue
Keep my distance, answer your resistance, hurt by persistance,
The twisted web of tangled lies strangles my hope to waste and numbs the taste
And I'm forced to face these hate crimes against the state of being
Feeling the weightlessness pressing between the ceiling, reeling around room,
Riding a bubble of sound proof, it's the frequency making you
Shake-shake with every boom
Involuntary muscle contraction, ignoring and drinking musical gas field euphoria
The sound counts to make the dead flush to have you a head rush with red thoughts and said stuff.
~~~PART OF ME~~~
Part of me won't go away
Everyday reminded how much I hate it
Weighted against the consequences
Can't live without it so it's senseless
Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole
Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste
I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low cause it's part of me
You hardly see right next to the heart of me
Heard of me the routine scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I'm sick of this
I can't stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade away on my sanity
I rather not even be then the man that's staring in the mirror through me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me
It can't be frightening if you've never felt it
Once it's been dealt with you feel like you've been touched by something angelic
And then melted down into a pool of peace
Cease to be the animal you used to be
Remove the broken parts you know were wrong
And feel the karma when the problem's all gone
And then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can't let be
And that reason will last fight to free yourself
Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well
And now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heart
Where your insides bruise
You can live if you're willing to
Put a stop to just what's killing you
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me
Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won't go away, part of me won't go away
Everywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to be
Every time I see myself I see there's always something wrong with me
I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me
I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me